"If I have something Im very into it about, something Im angry of, something Im feeling so much, something which brought me tears, I'll probably, most of the chances I'll get my journal instead of trying to let it out"
So Im missing Tasya so much.
Its weird when I realize this;
She message me with some kind of complicated pathetic words.
She has this and that of this and that by this and that problems.
She almost have me in tears because she says things I never imagine she'll get into.
I felt miserable once I received her messages.
No its not about what I did or anything.
Its just because I knew her for so long, but I barely know her now.
Of course yes she know me nothing by now, I'd totally changed.
But I hate it that I just realize this.
I hope I can be there at her place this Christmas.
We used to have our happy Christmas moment.
Its not about drinking, not about having fun here and there.
But its about sitting alone besides her listening to each other.
Damn I sounded like a gay now.
No no.
I just miss her.
